Another Day Under My Belt..

  It seems lately that James is always having issues.. we have appointments with the doctors. Wednesday he sees the Hematologist and Thursday he sees the Psychiatrist . He keeps getting bleeds and we went to the Hematologist week before last and they changed his factor doses and he still got a bleed the next week. He is starting to get paranoid about it all. He is also having issues with anxiety. Hoping to get some paperwork from his focus teacher before we see the doctors to show them how often he is having issues at school and how bad the episodes are.
  When James gets upset or anxious it affects me. I have a real hard time functioning and getting what I need to get done. My chest starts to hurt and I have a hard time focusing. Trying to decide if I need to go see my psychiatrist. I did talk to a therapist about seeing her. I just need to call and make an appointment. James has several appointments this week so I don't want to add to it. I tend to get overwhelmed when I have lots of appointments. 
     

Today Wasn't too Bad

I had alittle more time to wake up this morning and I think that helped. I took David to school. James stayed home because of his knee bleed. I came back home and made some phone calls. I called about getting James' wheelchair fixed. They have to put it through the insurance to see how it will be paid. Then I called SSI to find out some answers on the letter we received about James' benefits. I got a little frustrated because the guy who answered the phone couldn't really answer any of my questions, he told me that I needed to talk to this other lady and she was in an interview right then. I could leave her a voice mail  and he would email her to call me... I had to reschedule an appointment they had set up. I have my treatment on the same day and at the same time so I can't make it.. I need to reschedule it. So I left her a voice mail and I will call again in the morning... and every day until I get in touch with her.. Then James and I went to go get bread from the food pantry.. it is a program we belong to. At about 11 James wanted to go to school so we loaded up and I took him.. he said his knee was feeling better... I questioned him about getting back up on it too soon but he didn't want to get behind in his classes the first week of school.. I can understand that but I don't  want this bleed to be drawn out.. After I got back from taking him to school Dee and Holmes came to visit... we had a nice visit... then I filed a bunch of papers that were on my desk. I have to get my paperwork in order for when I go to the meeting with the lady from SSI. By the time I finished that, it was time for me to go pick the boys up from school. We came home and cooked supper.. we looked up and it was 7:00 and time for James to go to his therapy appointment...
All in all it was a good day.... I felt productive and was in a good mood..

What All Went On This Weekend

So this weekend wasn't half bad... The boys spent the night with friends Friday night. So Robert and I watched some TV together. Then we moved to the bedroom and were going to watch a movie in bed but we ended up talking about things between us . I cried but it ended on a good note.. He loves me and defiantly feels that I am a major part of his life and he couldn't do it without me. We talked about going to therapy...me doing some one on one and couples therapy and maybe him going to therapy. We still need to tweek our communication.

Then Saturday morning we spent some more time together before David came back home. Then we hung out and watched shows and movies... My best friend texted me to see what we were up to and ended up inviting us to supper... She is the most awesome cook!!! She fixed an awesome salad, potato salad, homemade mac and cheese, then some delicious bbqed chicken... YUMMY!!! We hung out and visited till about 9 and came home and crawled in bed.. as we needed to get up early this morning.

Sunday we spent the morning moving furniture around.. not a lot but we moved the stereo and stereo cabinet that was in my room into David's room and the I moved a what not shelf to where the stereo cabinet was and moved my recliner over a little bit. I also cleaned out my recliner and hope to work on my desk this week.. I did a lot of dusting in my room and still have some more to do.. Hopefully this will be a productive week.
Robert is out of town this week and it is the 1st week of school. I am taking deep breathes and hoping for the best for my boys.. I have one that is a Junior and one that is a Freshman.
I will try to blog each day and hope to hear from you on what you think about my posts...

What it is about!

I am creating this blog to help me journal the changes my relationship with my husband. We have been in an open relationship from 2003. We started out in the Swinging Lifestyle and that did not suit me ... so I stopped... and then I was looking for more of a relationship.. Found that in 2010... that person moved in 2012 and I tried dating others but it just did not work out. I started going to a bible study that one of my neighbors was hosting. We became friends and I have started reading a devotional every day and reading in my bible. I started feeling that I did not want an open relationship. I wanted to focus on my husband and my kids. I felt I wasn't showing them how to have a monogamous relationship.. which is how it should be. I used to have a more open thought process on things. But at this point I want to work on my relationship with God and my marriage and my boys. So that is what this blog is about...